11.10.2009
YES? NO? MAYBE SO?
IF YOU THINK I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU IN ANY OF MY POST, THERE'S LIKE A 60% CHANCE THAT I'M NOT :) BUT 40 IS STILL A LARGE NUMBER
&& this the REALIST ishh i never wrote
... SO I just saw somebody's status on facebook [ btw facebook is messy tsssk] anyways back to the story. Don't you just hate when someone wants something, and your willing to give them what they want, but they don't realize it. Therefore they can't take what they want. Ughh, it FRUSTRATING It be like Dannngggg, Lil Dadddyyyyyy.
Anyways today I have a bow in my hair, and i look like a Doll.
P.s. I love Barbie :)
Anyways today I have a bow in my hair, and i look like a Doll.
P.s. I love Barbie :)
.. Quote Me Shawtyy
So last night I was like in a freaking state of depression, kinda relating to my sentamential post some days back :( but anyways i like spazzed and like sent all these quotes to my Precious :))
Look at them:
" The Earth is stuck on it's axis; ain't no sunshine when he's gone"
" How can you ask for happiness, when you're the one who called for madness"
" It's kind of hard to catch a rebound when you don't want to get rid of the ball"
" Jealousy is a disease. Get well soon.. I'm sure if i got another dose of my prescription i'd get well super quick"
" He has my heart, too bad he doesn't want it"
" Be my prescription, not my addiction; I lie you can be both"
Lol i don't know if they're that good, but i was proud of myself... After all the depression was out of me i had a really FUNNY convo. I should put up the text messages, but ya knw can't do alll daattt lol
Look at them:
" The Earth is stuck on it's axis; ain't no sunshine when he's gone"
" How can you ask for happiness, when you're the one who called for madness"
" It's kind of hard to catch a rebound when you don't want to get rid of the ball"
" Jealousy is a disease. Get well soon.. I'm sure if i got another dose of my prescription i'd get well super quick"
" He has my heart, too bad he doesn't want it"
" Be my prescription, not my addiction; I lie you can be both"
Lol i don't know if they're that good, but i was proud of myself... After all the depression was out of me i had a really FUNNY convo. I should put up the text messages, but ya knw can't do alll daattt lol
11.05.2009
Fragile.
Enjoy!
Ever since i heard this song like last month i lovedd it, and i come across the video on the web.
Ever since i heard this song like last month i lovedd it, and i come across the video on the web.
HeadBarbieInCharge.
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"You was sleeping on me thinking it was Slumber Time, now i'm a Trending Topic lil mama, NUMBER SIGN [#]" -Nicki Minaj lol twitter ppl know what that means!
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I think they call this VENTING
I just wanna talk to somebody
Not necessairly talkingg talkingg, but like i wanna have someone i could just talk to and they understand me and where i'm coming from and they listen to me.
I used to have someone like that, but stuff happens of course. I miss that person SO much. Like us two could be on the phone from like 11 a.m. to freaking 6 a.m. the next day. All we would do is just talk. Talk about anything and everything. I would tell him things, and he would just listen.. and add his 2cents. He would also tell me things and i would add w/e also. Like i MISS him SO much. The fact that i can't talk to that person anymore, hurts soo much.
Yesterday i was doing nothing like all day
.. Lord knows how bad i wanted to dial that number, too bad i couldn't
Why? that's a WHOLE 'NOTHER STORY.
I just wish i could replace him w/ someone else, but that sounds way easier than it really is.
I think that has to do with me also. Like i'm really funny and friendly and stuff but like underneath i'm really deep and passionate. I don't expose that side of me so much though cause i just don't really get close to people like that. I mean there's some ppl who i'm really close to and i'd tell everything to. But like i've known those ppl since i was like2 so that's different. Like the person I was talking about in the beginning we started becoming cool in like May and it was like I knew him my whole life, we just connected.
I really wish it could be the same way w/ someone else, but i don't know. That was like my comfort zone, nobody can like make me feel so comfortable to just tell them everything, and like not many people can me feel ok to just be myself 100%
..And I HATE that. Maybe i need to stop being so guarded so i can get what i want..
Which is what i was saying i want earlier in this post. I'm just not used to being like that though, so it's kinda hard. I'm not the type of person who would sit down and get into a deep conversation like that. I don't know why i'm like that though b/c i LOVE deep, meaningfull conversations.
Maybe I need to work on that, yeaaa i think do.
..Times when i feel like this i just listen to slow love songg :(
Not necessairly talkingg talkingg, but like i wanna have someone i could just talk to and they understand me and where i'm coming from and they listen to me.
I used to have someone like that, but stuff happens of course. I miss that person SO much. Like us two could be on the phone from like 11 a.m. to freaking 6 a.m. the next day. All we would do is just talk. Talk about anything and everything. I would tell him things, and he would just listen.. and add his 2cents. He would also tell me things and i would add w/e also. Like i MISS him SO much. The fact that i can't talk to that person anymore, hurts soo much.
Yesterday i was doing nothing like all day
.. Lord knows how bad i wanted to dial that number, too bad i couldn't
Why? that's a WHOLE 'NOTHER STORY.
I just wish i could replace him w/ someone else, but that sounds way easier than it really is.
I think that has to do with me also. Like i'm really funny and friendly and stuff but like underneath i'm really deep and passionate. I don't expose that side of me so much though cause i just don't really get close to people like that. I mean there's some ppl who i'm really close to and i'd tell everything to. But like i've known those ppl since i was like2 so that's different. Like the person I was talking about in the beginning we started becoming cool in like May and it was like I knew him my whole life, we just connected.
I really wish it could be the same way w/ someone else, but i don't know. That was like my comfort zone, nobody can like make me feel so comfortable to just tell them everything, and like not many people can me feel ok to just be myself 100%
..And I HATE that. Maybe i need to stop being so guarded so i can get what i want..
Which is what i was saying i want earlier in this post. I'm just not used to being like that though, so it's kinda hard. I'm not the type of person who would sit down and get into a deep conversation like that. I don't know why i'm like that though b/c i LOVE deep, meaningfull conversations.
Maybe I need to work on that, yeaaa i think do.
..Times when i feel like this i just listen to slow love songg :(
10.23.2009
...Ask me why i'm upset,
cause the lady told them to get me the wrong kind of hair, like what am i supposed to do with this synthetic mess???!
... but is that really the case right now? hmm, yea maybee. Then again ---maybe not.
I always build up things inside of me. I go on acting like every thing's fine always when really it's not. I don't express the way i really feel cause i'm scared to? ehh i don't know. In a result to that things build up, and when i get mad/sad over little things.. it kinda feels like it's a big thing. Right now i'm upset, and since i can't do anything about it i get sad.The way i feel right now you'd probably think that something kinda BIG happened. It's not good to build up anger nor sadness. Sometimes something big can happen and i just wannnaaa crrryyy, and crying would be appropriate for the situation. But i don't cause i HATE to cry, it hurts .. so i put the situation to the side and i end up not dealing with it. Then something little can happen that would make the avg. person semi sad, but then w/ me it would me suppperrr sad. Why? cause i start to think about all the sad things that i never dealt with and it's just all one big burden on me that's gets me in a DEPRESSION mode.
It's NOT healthy.
cause the lady told them to get me the wrong kind of hair, like what am i supposed to do with this synthetic mess???!
... but is that really the case right now? hmm, yea maybee. Then again ---maybe not.
I always build up things inside of me. I go on acting like every thing's fine always when really it's not. I don't express the way i really feel cause i'm scared to? ehh i don't know. In a result to that things build up, and when i get mad/sad over little things.. it kinda feels like it's a big thing. Right now i'm upset, and since i can't do anything about it i get sad.The way i feel right now you'd probably think that something kinda BIG happened. It's not good to build up anger nor sadness. Sometimes something big can happen and i just wannnaaa crrryyy, and crying would be appropriate for the situation. But i don't cause i HATE to cry, it hurts .. so i put the situation to the side and i end up not dealing with it. Then something little can happen that would make the avg. person semi sad, but then w/ me it would me suppperrr sad. Why? cause i start to think about all the sad things that i never dealt with and it's just all one big burden on me that's gets me in a DEPRESSION mode.
It's NOT healthy.
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